About

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I am Ness and this is an honest account of living through anxiety.

My anxiety story…

I’ve suffered from anxiety on and off since I was a teenager (maybe even longer) and it reached a peak when my little brother was killed in 2010. At my rock bottom I stopped going to work, I was repeatedly hurting my husband, family and friends, I was drinking far too much and I felt like an emotional whirlwind on most days, or like a zombie on others. I honestly feel that my battle with anxiety and putting so much effort into living a full life despite my anxiety has been the making of me.

Gratitude…

It’s been a long slow process (that I have to continue every day) but the things that have helped me most are getting outside on a daily basis, yoga, mindfulness, and a gratitude practice. Other tools have been nature therapy, bereavement counselling and CBT. All of which I’ll touch upon in this blog.  Becoming a mum has only been possible because of this journey.

More about me…

I love exploring with my small family. I’m currently on maternity leave from my job as a Project Manager at RSPB nature conservation charity – ‘Connecting children to nature’, a cause I’m super excited about.

On my good days I love the great outdoors, mountains, yoga, burritos, wild camping, meditation, trail running, red wine, hiking, latino-pop, surfing, morning-light, kayaking, minimalism, nature, travel, beaches, forests… I could go on…

On my bad days I can still be a procrastinating drama-queen, and a self-pitying negative wallower.

Every day I love and appreciate those in my heart.